In a few days, I’ll be turning 40.
And I’m pretty happy about it!
Do I feel over the hill? Are aches and pains starting to creep in?…well, they’re really nothing new. I’ve had arthritis since the age of 28 and lupus since 34. (If you don’t know what lupus is, it’s okay, I didn’t either until I was diagnosed with it…I can tell you more about it later.) Am I dreading the thought of reading glasses?…not really. My eyesight has been an increasingly complex issue since kindergarten, with four surgeries already and more on the horizon. I’m just thankful that I still have vision!
Maybe I’ve actually been over the hill for a while…
I don’t think I’d turn the clock back, though, even if I could…because 40 comes with so much freedom!
I don’t have to worry about what other people think of me. I am who God made me to be, and pleasing Him is my aim.
I don’t have to compare myself to others, and I don’t have to feel like I don’t measure up. I have a unique set of strengths and weaknesses, and so does everybody else.
I don’t have to say yes to every opportunity that comes my way. This was a big one for me. Lupus has taught me that it’s not only okay, but healthy, to say no…without guilt.
I don’t have to despair when my expectations aren’t met. They probably had no basis in reality anyway. Good times, bad times…they all come to pass.
I probably “knew” these things when I was younger, but it was so hard to actually live by them then.
Yes, I’m glad to be turning 40. In some ways, it suits me better than 16 did.
“For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven…He has made everything beautiful in its time…” Ecclesiastes 3:1, 11a (ESV).
“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.” 2 Corinthians 4:16 (ESV)